I'm a crying kiwi


So, um, hello! I'm not sure if anyone still reads this, but this post is partially for myself, so I suppose it doesn't really matter.

It's come to my attention that, well, I just don't really use this journal anymore. I don't know exactly why I stopped. To be fair, I don't really know why I started in the first place, either.

This journal has been with me through thick and thin, good and bad. I started it on September 4th, 2001 and while I went a little while before it caught on, I started writing at a ridiculous rate in April of 2002. A rate that I kept up for some time, might I add. Quite some time. As of right now, I have 2,451 entires in this journal, which isn't that bad. Considering that there are a total of 3,285 days over the course of 9 years, in that entire time I averaged one post every 1.3 days. For NINE YEARS. Man, that's dedication.

I can hardly even remember all the stuff that's happened in all that time. I was in college in Gainesville, on and off. I dated several girls, had several jobs, made friends, lost friends, got cancer, got rid of cancer and even managed to get a college degree, though some suspected I wouldn't. Even more importantly than that, I got married. It's funny to look back at those early posts and see what I was like back then, and sometimes I have to wonder how things turned out the way that they did. They certainly looked pretty grim, for awhile there.

But all of that is in the past. Now I live in Atlanta, and I have a great life for myself here. My career is starting to move forward, I have a house with a lovely wife and an adorable dog, and it's a damn sight better than the cramped apartment that I was sitting in when I wrote that first entry, on September 4th, 2001. It was a day after I got back from DragonCon (or perhaps that night), and little did I know that that trip to DragonCon would kick into motion a series of events that I can trace from there to meeting my wife.

What I'm getting at, I suppose, is that I'm officially leaving livejournal. I haven't posted in it for far too long, and I haven't read it for even longer. I make Facebook posts from time to time now, and while I don't particularly appreciate how society is becoming used to these small, bite-sized pieces of information, I can't really say too much when I'm as guilty of it as everyone else.

So, I still get e-mail notifications of comments from LJ, and I'm leaving this post here as a memorial to my journal. So feel free to comment until the end of time, I suppose. Generally speaking, I'm a pretty easy guy to find on the internet, but if you only know me through the internet and don't know my real name to find me on Facebook, just comment here, and I'll get it to you.

I'd also like to add that I'm extremely thankful for everyone who's in any way interacted with this journal over the last ten years, whether by commenting or by being around me in person and having me write about you. While yeah, the last ten years have had ups and downs, I wouldn't be the person I am today without it, and I think I've turned out okay so far. So, thanks, everyone. Thank you for reading, commenting or just being there. It meant a tremendous amount to me, even those of you who have drifted away from me over the years. Whether you think I hate you, or don't care about you, or whatever, I can assure you that every now and then (maybe only every few years), I stop and think about you.

Most importantly, though, I want to thank my journal. You've been there for me throughout everything that happened, and while there have been several scares about this website going away, it never did. Thanks, Journal.

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Whirlwind much?

Okay, it's come to my attention that I haven't updated my livejournal in two weeks. The reason for this, I suppose, is that it feels as though LJ has been declining in popularity. Well, at least that's one reason. The other reason is that I've been really busy.

So, um, it appears that I'm making a short film. My director friend came in from out of town and was basically like, "Hey, let's shoot a quick film." And I was like, "Okay." And he was like, "Good. So, go ahead and write the script." <chuckles>

So over the course of about six hours we'd come up with a premise, cast a lead character and written a script. It's basically going to be a short steampunk action film involving a robbery and a betrayal, and we're shooting it March 15-17th.

And, umm, during this whole process, I kind of got the idea for another short film. My director friend agreed to direct it, provided that I write it and it comes out good. It's a zombie film about five people stuck in a mall during the zombie apocalypse. Oh, also, it's a musical.

Yeah, you heard me. I'm writing a zombie musical. I can't write music, so I'm collaborating with a friend of mine for the melodies. I've always loved musicals, and I'm really, really excited about the prospect of writing a musical. If this works out, I would absolutely love to do a series of musicals in various genres, like sci-fi, fantasy, etc.

The upshot of all this is that I'm doing well, and having fun!

Snow Day!

So, things have been pretty busy lately. On the downside, the feature film script thing didn't work out. On the upside, I've made significant progress toward making the audio drama move forward, as well as working on another script for a short film.

However, that's all less exciting than the fact that today it snowed in Atlanta! And it snowed a ton!

So what's a guy to do but make weird snowmen on his front lawn and... on... top... of... his... car?

Yeah, you heard me.Collapse )

State of the Austin Address

So, it's come to my attention that I have a huge number of things that I'm working on right now, and I figured I'd lay them out for all of you, just so you know what's up with me.

First of all, I still don't know for sure about the movie script... I've been going back and forth with the director, but he seems pretty dedicated to working with me, so once we get a script sample that he approves, I think things will move forward on that front. ^^

So here's the list!

  • Provided that I get the script contract for the film, there's that.
  • That director may also be interested in making short films of some of my short stories, so I've been talking to him about that as well.
  • I'm working on a short film with the Outlanders in which I'll be working on the script, and acting. (It's the sequel to this short film.)
  • I wrote a script for a filmmaker in Canada who's supposedly making a short film of it in the next few months.
  • I'm working on an audio drama based on my short story, "Virgil".
  • I'll be reading "Virgil" at the Crossroads Writers' Conference, for which I received an invitation kind of out of the blue.
  • I should have an audiobook of "The Phantastic and Wondrous Adventures of Mr. Jonathan Darby" coming out (at least in episodic form) in the next month or two.
  • I'm the Academic Panel Coordinator for both AnachroCon and the Alternate History Track at DragonCon, so I need to put together a whole bunch of panels in the next few months.
  • I'll be presenting a paper on Steampunk at the Internation Conference of the Fantastic in the Arts (which I haven't written yet) at the end of March.
  • I'm working on my Master's Thesis, which is a textual analysis of H.G. Wells' "The Time Machine"'s revision history.

    Now, I THINK that's it. But that only covers the creative things that I've been up to lately.

    So, I'm really hoping that the majority of those things come to fruition. The various events are gonna happen no matter what I do, and I just hope that I do a good job on them. Still, it would be great if all of those films and other projects come together.

    Now you know!
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    Cross your fingers!

    I can't say very much at this stage since it's still so early, but it looks as though there's a good chance that I'll be working on the script for a financed feature film.

    It's very exciting for me!

    Essentially, the situation is that there's already a script, but it's in pretty bad shape, so I'd be coming on almost more as an editor than a writer. There was a disagreement between the previous scriptwriter and the director, so they need someone else.

    It would be a paying job (which is more than I can say of some other jobs I've done), and I should theoretically know within the next day or so if it's gonna happen.

    I've got a good feeling about it, but wish me luck anyway! =D
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    Prevailing versus post-vailing.

    So, last night I sent the track director an e-mail regarding what had happened on steamfashion, and she had a talk with Jaborwhalky about it.

    Supposedly it wasn't her who deleted the post, but one of her moderators. I find this somewhat hard to believe, but I also can't prove or disprove it, so...

    Anyway, the track director explained the situation to her, and Jaborwhalky said that if I posted it again, it wouldn't be deleted. I'm about to go post it again now.

    Hooray, prevailing!

    Thank you all for your comments on my last post. =)

    Haters gonna hate.

    So, today I had a meeting with Cindy and William, the two track directors for the Alternate History track at DragonCon and the organizers of AnachroCon.

    Essentially, I'm the Academic Panel Director, which is a title that I sort of made up to cover my responsibilities. I'm in charge (relatively autonomously) of putting together good academic panels for both DragonCon and AnachroCon (some of which I'll be participating in myself).

    I came home from said meeting excited about getting the word out and getting started on putting together some panels. So I made a post to steamfashion asking people to either volunteer to speak, recommend a speaker, or just give their thoughts about last year's track. I wrote the post using my real name, and as an official representative of the track at DragonCon.

    I'm sure you can see where this is going. The post only lasted an hour or two before it was summarily deleted by, I can assume, jaborwhalky, that mad monarch who gives new meaning to the word 'despot'.

    It's one thing to hate on me in an unofficial capacity, but an entirely different thing to get in the way of my organizing a good set of panels for DragonCon, which is something that will affect the community as a whole.

    Frankly, I don't know how Falksen stands her.

    Included below is the text from my post on steamfashion, just in case anyone wants to spread the word that I'm looking for good, knowledgeable speakers and panel ideas or feedback. I said that I was mastergode because, of course, I had to post it under my alternate name that I made just for steamfashion, anti_censorship, because my primary name, this one, was banned from the community.


    My name is Austin Sirkin (also (by which I mean primarily) known as mastergode), and I'm the Academic Panel Director for the Alternate History Track at DragonCon this year, which is quite a mouthful! Essentially, this means that I'm in charge of putting together a spate of academic panels for our track. Those of you who attended last year may remember me from the Wild West panel, the men's fashion panel, the League of Extraordinary Gentlemen Panel or the Time Travel Paradoxes panel as the gentleman with the goatee with the handlebar moustache.

    Since our track is a fan track we focus primarily on discussion and dissemination rather than on simply listening to special guests ramble. Which means that I'm looking at all of you to help make this year as great as it can be!

  • Did you attend our track last year? If so, did you enjoy the academic panels that you attended (if any)? Why or why not?
  • Have you attended another event in which you were impressed by a particular speaker who you'd like to see on our track?
  • Are you, yourself, interested in speaking about a particular subject?
  • Or is there just a topic that is of particular interest to you, that you'd like to hear talked about?

    If you can answer any of the above questions, please feel free to do so! The more feedback we get, the better the track will be this year! If you are interested in being a speaker, or in recommending someone else, I suggest that you don't wait to inquire about it. The con is still 9 months away, but that time goes by pretty quick, and the available panel slots will likely fill up pretty fast.

    You're welcome to either respond via a comment to this post, or e-mail me at austin.sirkin@gmail.com.

    Thank you!"
  • Adventure!

    Best. Concert. Ever.

    Okay, it wasn't the best concert ever. That was quite possibly Manowar and Rhapsody, or maybe one of the old TMBG and OKGO shows.

    However, tonight I went to go see Jonathan Coulton, and it was SO FUCKING GOOD.

    For those of you who don't know, his opening band, Paul and Storm, were freaking hilarious. Coulton was pretty much exactly what I expected him to be, but the opening band had me laughing so freaking hard. Seriously, I have NEVER laughed that hard at a show before, even at a comedy show!

    It was just a really good show, and the audience was a really good crowd. I wish I could have... I dunno, bottled that show and then given it to other people to experience, it was just that good.

    Oh, also, coming up in February are two more shows that I want to go to, and if anyone else is interested, you should let me know. That 1 Guy is playing in the middle of the month, and Henry Rollins is at the end of the month. I dunno if Rollins is doing music or spoken word or what, but I just have to see that guy, because he's fucking crazy. <chuckles>

    Anyway, time to go watch an episode of Community, and then go to sleep. ^^

    Circadian what?

    I've been on a really bad sleep schedule lately, and even though I keep trying to change it, I just can't seem to do it.

    The problem, I think, is that I've started having trouble going to sleep. Not actually sleeping, but going to sleep. I just get so wound-up as the day goes on that it's hard for me to calm myself down and convince myself to go to sleep, even though I know I need to.

    It's an issue that's affected more than just my sleep schedule. I've just been really tense lately, too... All of the muscles in my body are tight and sore, primarily in my neck and shoulders. And I've even begun going back to the gym lately, so it's not that I'm not getting enough exercise. And yes, I've been stretching.

    I just need to calm the hell down, and I don't know how. I mean, I'm already on anti-anxiety drugs and I really don't want to increase my dosage.


    I love the internet

    Last night, somehow or other, I got the song "Mexican Radio" by Wall of Voodoo stuck in my head. The problem, though, was that I didn't know the name of the song, who sang it, or any of the lyrics other than "I'm on a somethingsomething radio," from the chorus.

    Well, as you can imagine, googling "i'm on a radio" didn't turn up anything helpful.

    So I went to YouTube and typed that in, and scrolled through the various videos until I found the above linked video, and I was like, "Ah-hah! This is it!"

    I was... amazed, frankly, and it made me think of the way music used to be when I was a kid. Children growing up today are going to have an entirely different perception of music and music culture.

    For example, band information used to be hard to come by. That was how you could differentiate the real fans from people who just sort of liked a band -- they knew all about the band beyond just the music. Not only that, but sometimes just knowing of a band's existence was enough to earn you cool points.

    Nowadays, almost every band has a wikipedia page detailing their entire history, making that information available to everyone. There are sites like Pandora that introduce you to new music. If you don't know a song, you can just look it up on YouTube.

    It's... Well, it's pretty awesome.

    Every now and then, I have moments like this. In which I come to a realization that the world has changed markedly since I was a child.